and i'm wondering

I'm excited and terrified.
   and I want to ask how bad it hurts
(but I know, I know, I already know exactly.)
   and I'm sorry
   and I haven't even done anything.
I want to touch the bony ridges of your body.
I want to dip my hand inside you, caress what is left.
   We'll take your bad thoughts,
   fold them into origami, send them sailing off roof tops.
Raining on all the happy people.